pent-up

Sunday, 1pm..

my friend came to my house

wake me up from bed..

bring me out..

had lunch together

and she starts the conversation

are you depressed sis ? 

I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying.

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People are always telling me to smile,

like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain

Well I've tried that

I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles and

what I've learned is that when it hurts this much inside your heart always

has a way of showing it

no matter how many layers of make-up you wear

I feel so hopeless and lost

I was just so desperate

I knew what was wrong with me

but nobody else around me understood me

I have lost interest in my studies and everything

I was so depressed and I wish somebody please hit me

And I can just lying on bed forever with empty mind

I needed rest and to be looked after inside my room

and for people to understand the torment and the anguish

going on my head.

I cried like I never cried before and

it was anger, it was eleven years of pent-up anger coming out

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I am living life as it is now by going with the flow

trying to not thinking about 'them' and 
adapt with my 'long-distance' love story.

Sayang, I really need you...

spiritual and secure

I need you to stand besides me

make me feel safe, please!

Angel Of Mine

the moment you realize that you found the person that you want to be with forever

the hours you spend conversing, touching, hugging, laughing and kissing. .

the minute you hate that keep you away from him

the seconds it takes to lose it all...

either well and alive, dead or gone..

the right one is always an Angel from start to end.

-biarlah rahsia-

sorry top to toe