February 11, 2013

strength


It's been ages since i've been on to update my blog.
well, 2012 has definately been one of the hardest and most emotional years I have in a long time..and now perhaps
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I am tired of people telling me to "SMILE"
" Farra... can you please smile?"
" Farra, how's your day? smile please!" urgh
I'm honestly tired of trying, sick of crying and I know I've been smiling but it's all fake..F.A.K.E dude!!

It's hard for me to answer the question "what's wrong" when nothing is right

I really wish I could say everything I wanted to say, but I realize it's not that easy
It's selfish to say that, I just can't help it.
I need a stable job and I need to feel good all the times even its not
I need people to survive, I can survive alone but that's all i'll ever be, alone.

yeah..finding the strength to stay calm and move on.
and all strength might comes from Him.
When He separates us from something or someone we love,
there no other choice but just be patience and strong because
God's plans for our lives are always better than what we think is best.

I hope it gets better.