Actually, I felt better after 16 hours of proper, proper sleep. Its been so long since I slept that long. Thank you. :)

Chapter 26. 14 march 2013

First of all

THANKs for all the well wishes guys and girls

Hope everyone's safe wherever they are

enjoy the day and many more happy times to come.

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I'm at the 2-6 now

where did all the time go?

well, nothing much I can say

Might not expect things to happen

because it's better to be surprised than feel disappointed

whatever will be, will be. Amin

p/s thank you so much for giving me the support that I need all this while

Love,

Farraneil Az

my heart soar

they're my parents. 
I miss them.
Losing your parents is never easy,
however old you are.
I find this frustrating and stupid.

Well, you never get over it.
In fact, you get through it
YES, probably I get used to it
but I don't get over it.

A pieces of my life jigsaw has been removed and
however much I rearrange the other pieces,
they never quite fit in the same way again.

The difficult times are still there,
but they ebb and flow and live learned to accept them.

Birthday can be hard,
every time, not every year but occasionally.
There's no rhyme or reason to when it might happen.
I'm only human. Forgive me Allah!
I can be fine for a months, maybe a year

The smallest thing can make my heart dip; 
seeing a young child with their parents because
my parents don't really spent time with me when I was kid

grief can do strange things to you.
an emotion that often rears its head is envy
It's not something I'm proud of but it's there all the same
It usually burns low but increases slightly in certain situation

my parents were by no means perfect
and I wasn't the ideal daughter
Whatever it is I'm still their daughter
I always be
and they'll always be my parents
I carry them with me each day..

deep inside, I really miss them.

Zaiton Sameon - Menaruh Harapan

si sepet

officially aku sudah berada di rumah baru

suasana yang 100% berbeza.

agak awkward mula nya

tapi alhamdulillah sudah boleh suai kan diri

dengan housemate yang gila gila perangainya

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sakit?

ya aku sakit lagi

2 minggu lebih. tonsillitis

yang tak bestnya bila batuk kahar aku berdarah

dan bila malam hari

temperature badan naik mendadak

mungkin aku terlampau letih

itu, ini, sana dan sini

Tidur?

as usual paling lama 3jam paling max

padahal badan dah terkulai layu sangat

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oh 23hb Feb lepas birthday baba.

sudah ku kirim kan email sebagai penganti diri

tapi sayang nya tak berbalas

tak apa la

siapa aku..

aku just mampu dakan baba sehat dan happy selalu.

and today dah 4 march..kejap je

10 hari lagi birthday aku...tapi taknak ingat pun dah selalunya aku pon lupa birthday aku bila

aku tak mengharapkan apa apa

cukup la sekadar ada orang orang yang masih menyenangi aku 

ada di sekeliling aku ni

Adam?

ye aku sungguh mengharap dia ada dekat dengan aku

aku penat mengira hari 

menanti kedatangan dia..

maratap sedih saban waktu

tapi aku sungguh harap dia ada bersama.

diri aku belum kuat sepenuhnya

aku masih bergantung harap dengan ubat ubat yang semakin hari semakin menjelek kan

aku muak

aku jemu

makan ubat hari hari.

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Kerja

almost everyday aku kerja

tak tahu lah next semester nanti macam mana

dengan class, dengan studio dengan kerja

harap semua okay.

Sepet oh sepet 

moga kau terus kuat untuk terus kan hari hari mu yang mendatang.